Get It Together

To the dumb men who think I am looking for a new father for my children and financial support for myself: you are misataken.

My girls HAVE a father. They don't need a father. You don't even have to like them or bond with them. I don't really care. As long as you don't hurt them in any way, I don't care what relationship you have with them. You don't even have to have any relationship with them. I'm not even sure if I want you to meet them.

Now, as for me, no, I really am NOT a gold-digger. As much as I joke about it, that's honestly not me. That's all that is, a joke. Money cannot buy happiness. It can try, but it will never succeed. You have to make your own happiness.

I don't need financial support. I require emotional support, somebody who can talk to me when I need encouragment, love me unconditionally, hold me when I need a shoulder to cry on, and who will listen when I need to just bitch. Someone who will catch me when I fall, or even, if possible, prevent me from falling altogether. Someone to back me up when a tough decision has to be made, but is not afraid to tell me when, in his heart, he knows I am wrong. A life partner, a friend, a comrad, but also somebody who I can take to bed with me because mommies need lovin' too.

Quenty-Schive

And now, as promised, Susan will attempt to fill out 25 applications today.

1. Build-a-Bear
2. Champs Sports
3. Foot Locker
4. Lady Foot Locker
5. Kids Foot Locker
6. Foor Action
7. dELiAs
8. Express
9. the Gap
10. Lane Bryant
11. Catherine's
12. Sears
13. Ulta


Well, at least I tried. I got halfway, which is, I guess, okay. Some of the places required a resume, and I don't have one saved on this computer. I guess I should get on that, right?

Some Things You Do For Love, Love, Love

Sometimes, I feel like I'm the only one who believes in pure love any more. You know, the kind of love wher you don't hold back. It's the kind where you love somebody no matter what. It doesn't matter what is in that person's past. I'm talking about unconditonal love, the love that says "So what if she has two kids and I always imagined myself with someone who doesn't have any, I love her anyway." This is the kind of love that says "Who cares if she's too short or too fat or too tall or too thin or too old or too whatever?" What are you afraid of? Love shouldn't be this difficult, this confusing. Love should come easy. If you love it, take care of it. If it makeas you happy, spend your time with it. sure you only have one life to live, but that doesn't mean you should throw out the things you feel don't fit. They are in your life for a reason. Let them in! Hold on to them! Cherish them! Or are you willing to just say good-bye just because it isn't perfect? That sounds selfish to me. Just think about it, okay?

No, I InCYST!

I am in so much pain from the stupid cyst. I wish it would just find its own way out. The pregnancy symptoms are completely unnecessary, thank you very much. But at least I know why my energy is lower than usual.

The girls come back from Jackson tomorrow. They went to see the Hannah Montana movie with Grandma Karen and Nanny Mary today. I can't wait to hear all about it. Camryn sounded so excited although it did rain almost the whole time. But it did here too.

I'm gonna apply to more retail jobs again tomorrow. Just the perfect way to spend Memorial Day! I just need to keep busy until Tuesday. Hopefully nobody will call until at least Wednesday. I wonder just how many I can fill out before I pass out. It is now my mission to do twenty-five tomorrow. I have lost count of how many applications I've done this year. Pathetic!

Yeah. I'm gonna go now, though. The Tylenol is calling out to me. So, be good.