On the Up and Up

Got an email from OLOLRMC, and yes, P was right. WTFE. I just had to see. Totally not sweating it.

Got a call from the place in Watson. Yes, mother, I am glad I applied. Got an interview for Monday @ 1.

Kids go to Jackson again this weekend. Will probably spend tonight at a hotel again. Haha. Too bad for him. The things he will do to keep his lie going are amazing. Although, he IS still a man. I laugh. I laugh hard.

If I get the job in Watson, will totally be moving up there. Saw a great little neighborhood close to the store.

I hope that changes the arrangement. I hope that means he can't just come to my house and put them to bed any more. Sounds like a question for el lawyer.

Found out how much I'll be getting back from the federal gov't for taxes and it's a pretty little penny. Can make 3 car payments and still have some to get up to northern MS for "Christmas." And the local tax just might pay for el tattoo. I just have to get the forms. Too bad Brian (the step-dad) doesn't work for LDR any more. That step would be so much easier then. Oh well.

This itchiness has gotten outta control. I wish I knew what was causing it. My skin's not talking.

Totally broke my myspace purge. I had to. I wanted to look at Stan's tattoos. If he's doing my phoenix tattoo, I have to check him out. He's gonna draw it up for me too. Because I say so. Although 8 hours is awfully far to drive for an awesome tattoo done by a friends' S.O. Oh well. I've totally convinced my gma to go with me. Ray Charles Plaza for her, tattoo for me. I bet my mom would love the Riverquarium too. That's not until July, though anyway. I'll have time to save up for all of that. And I'll convince el madre to let me drive. I've driven her Durango around town, I just have to learn to Interstate with it. That could take a while. That thing is el huge! And you thought the Hummer was big. And it still might be, but these wheels are almost as tall as Jayde. And she's no shortie. She's 37", maybe 38" So, these wheels ain't small, by any means. The top of my Avenger, the TOP, comes up to her door, like the middle of her door. OK? And I almost fall out of the thing any time I get out. And getting in? Fahgetabouit! I has to climb in like a kid. She needs running boards like whoa. Oh yes. Durangos are scary creatures. I kid you not.

Mom and Brian are going on vaca starting tonight. It's their anniversary trip. They got married on 02-02-01. I was a Junior in highschool. Seventeen before I got a dad. LMAO. That kills me. It wasn't that funny at the time, but now it is. Don't ask. Oh and Moody Blue (the Avenger) will have been in my possesion for a year by then. And she is totally getting a make over this weekend. I've got the apolstery cleaner and the time, and now she's getting a clean. And then? NO MORE DRIVE THRU IN THE CAR! If we don't have time to get out and eat, we won't be getting it. -sets foot down- I'm putting my foot down.

What else?

Jayde decided she was a cat today, so I made her strip naked. She cried. We talked and now she's decided that she is a little girl. I told her all of the things that cats can't do. You should have seen her face. "No cheese?!" I'm a mean mommy, I know, but it worked. No more cats. It all started because she was dumping coke onto the window seat and licking it up. Gross!

Snip, snap, snout,
this blog's told out!

Not Da Baby!

Sorry it's been so long since I've written. This week has rushed by.

My baby turned three today. I made a time line of polaroids to share. YAY! I just don't have one for today. LOL. By the by, this idea came from my friend Tiana. Tiana had a baby one day before I had Jayde. We call them our almost twins. LMAO

We're gonna have professional ones done soon, and I'll share that photoshoot with you the day I get them back. It's our annual shoot. We usually do it as close to the actual date as possible, which usually means around the first week of February (when bitches get paid).

Anyway, on with the show:

The Bad News Bears

Bad mood today. I woke up grouchy and today isn't looking good for making me feel better. My kids are acting like they hate me. My gma is trying to figure out why, and everything is just irritating me. It's one of THOSE days, ok? I'm in a foul mood. DEAL WITH IT! I just want to cuss everybody out and go back to bed until tomorrow. FUCK! Don't you get it! RAWR!

I want to smack every single one of my friends. All of them. Internet or otherwise. It seems like everyone is being bitchy and whiny today and it's like STFU! And yes, I probably need to STFU too. I'm sick of bitches. SICK! We're all in hard times. ALL. OF. US. You are NOT alone. I know you feel like it, but you aren't. I. DON'T. HAVE. A. JOB! And it doesn't look like I'm going to get one any time soon. I've been on one interview. ONE! And they called me to tell me that basically I suck and that I need more experience. How the hell am I supposed to GET the experience if nobody will freaking hire me? HOW? And I basically screwed myself over on that one. I screwed MYSELF out of a job. I'd be at work right now had I not freaking procrastinated. I'd be getting MORE than $1035 for tax returns had I just did my stuff. A nd don't think I'll EVER get over that. I won't. No use beating myself up over that, but I wouldn't have a problem AT ALL if I hadn't acted stupid. fsdjfkl;jfklds;jal

And I have no patience today. NONE! Did I freaking mention that? Because I don't. Everybody is going in freaking slow motion today and it's very annoying. move. move. move. I don't have time for you today.

And I wonder if anybody knows how damn annoying it is to hear about all these people that are looking for pharmacy techs. Do they realize how stupid THAT makes me feel? "This company, this company, and this company are looking for techs. Why can't you find a job?" I DON'T KNOW! OK? I JUST DON'T KNOW! It's bad enough that Kyle is pushing me, I don't need everybody pushing me. I can't fill out another damn application. I just can't. I'll start again on Monday. I really will, but 8 is enough for now.

And finding a house? Or something to live in. Anywhere? It's impossibe. And yes, this is me breaking down. And no, I'm not feeling any better.