Red Rebellion

Went to a free concert and DVD shoot today. They rocked it. The wind was being a bitch and screwing with the sound, but all was good. They did their thing, rocked it out. I was proud of them. Took some pics. Here they are.

Scott pounds the drums

Shane. Rockin' it!

Alexandra, Shane and Melissa's little girl

Alexandra shows off her loose tooth

FYI: I went to school with Melissa and Scott in 6th and 7th grade. Shane and Scott are BFF. Shane and Melissa are engaged.

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Must Keep Going!

I have applied to seven more places making the count 55.

I am about to cry. Not only is my count at 55, but I have recruited my ex-husband to help with the job hunt. I doubt he can do anything, but I sent him my resume'. I am THAT desperate. I am also looking for jobs not directly in my field. Anybody else who wants a copy of my resume' can have it, if they think they can help.

Although, I did just get off the phone with a lady from the CVS Caremark job in Birmingham. -crosses fingers- She said she would pass my info on to her supervisors. It sounded promising-ish!

"Satan" Should Die

Yesterday was pretty fun. I don't think it was as fun for Jessie. ROFLMAO So not going there. He would kill me! And I know he reads this, so, so not taking the chance. I mean, I love you, Jessie!

Cycle day number one for me. So much fun! Cramps are AWESOME! Cramps in the cold, though? PRICELESS! And me, without a snuggle buddy! HOW VERY PERFECT! -eyeroll-

I'm driving up there on Friday night. Don't argue. Everybody needs a stalker. LOL

My friend, Melissa, has this very awesome fiance named Shane, and he is shooting a DVD on Saturday. Guess who is going? ME! Iz gonna be a star! I made a deal that will probably come back to haunt me, but whatever. I really need to get out more.

So, anyway, I am sitting INSIDE wearing a hoodie. I am a wienie today. A very big wienie.

What else?

Nothing especially cool happened today. I didn't even apply to anywhere today. I didn't get rejected either. So, that was good. I'm just going to start applying to places and get a "normal" job now. It's come down to that. I don't know how useful my resume will be for that, though, but it can't hurt to try. Right? Right. But let me take this opportunity to say how much Mr. Bobby Jindal sucks right now. I never thought his hiring freezes would affect me. HA! And now there are approximately 2,000 more people looking for jobs now. Wait! Is that right? I think it may be more. But anyway, this means even MORE competition and pretty much all of it more experienced, period. fkldsfaskl;ajskal;sakl;fdskalf!

I wish somebody would discover me. I wish somebody would hear me singing and be like, "you! record deal! now!" Or maybe say to me, "you have a pretty face, come model for us!" Something! I need a break. Just a small one. Just something to get me on my feet enough to be able to get a house, or like be able to STAY here.

No, I really DON'T like my supposed free ride. It kills me. I am just sitting here, rotting basically, and I won't be able to keep this house. And I can't afford anything else. And I have mouths to feed. Bodies to clothe. Heads to cover. And in July, I'm going to lose the ability to do that. FOR GOOD! And I feel like such a bum. Like a loser. And all anybody can say is "sorry," but they can't do anything to help. All they can do is shake their heads and pity me. FUCKING! HELP ME! Telling me to let it go and let God, isn't helping me. God is not doing SHIT! He thinks this whole thing is fucking hilarious. Well, guess what! I don't get the joke. I'm not laughing.

Worrying about it another day is not an option. THIS IS IT! This is crunch time. This is move it or lose it time. There is no more tomorrow left. I have no time to relax. This has to get done, NOW! There is no time for self-pity or self- doubt. It is what is it, and that's all there is. And I guess it's just me myself and I now. Nobody's going to do it for me. I have to do it. I have to do it ALL! And it has to be done YESTERDAY!

And I am way past over emotional right now, so I'm going to bed.

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CC's, I Love You, Taco Bell, Not So Much

So, um, things happen so quickly around here it's pretty funny. Date = back on. LMAO. He'll be here in about 12 hours!

Anyway, I got an iced chai latte' today from CC's, and I was in heaven. I miss it. So much. Being broke sucks!

But then I tried to find a Taco Bell and the one by my house was closed due to equipment failure. Susan was PISSED! She drove all over town to find one. Fucking Nazis!

I am in such a weird mood right now. I'm in between giddy and nervous.

I have to clean my house and make cookies and all kinds of fun stuff.

I think I will send my gma off when he gets here. Maybe she can go to my mom's? I don't know. She said she would go to her room or something. But I honestly don't want to disrupt the flow of the afternoon. I'm way past weirded out when it comes to seeing him again.

I don't know how it's gonna go. I mean, I know I feel things for him, but I don't think fucking him would absolutely be appropriate on the first "date." But who knows how long until we see each other again, you know.

I'm gonna try to get over my weird fear of driving up there alone by then. Maybe do a dry run or two with the gma? I don't know. Somebody help me! I don't know how long the Kyle excuse is gonna work for.

I meean, it IS true. He WON'T drop them off if I'm not there. But...I'm not completely sure once will hurt. I really just want Jessie to come tonight. Well, I did, but ish too late now. : (

I wish I knew all the answers! I think I'mma go to bed now. Maybe my sub-conscious will know what to do.

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